I wake up from dreams of warmth, light & find that the sun is, heart-leap! shining

posted by jeremy on January 23, 2006

I pull on pants, shoes, go for coffee, return home to research things, certain ancient yet kicking conflicts. Went to see Munich with Nathan yesterday & researched the validity of the story just now. According to this, a thesis written by a Marine officer hopeful, the events themselves seem solid enough though the psyche of the characters were details that Spielberg himself had to develop. Nathan & I talked on the MAX ride home about how neither of us really have any information floating about in our own skulls about the actual political history of Israel, even as fascinating as it is.

& it just goes on & on. The Palestinians are finally finally on the way to getting their own homeland even as the the birth struggles of such fills todays headlines. What a strange web of history, all of this. So incredibly fucking ancient, this ongoing battle over the shape of god, the scant resources of the Middle East, all the innocent & not-so-innocent blood that has been spilled over many a millenia. It truly baffles me, all of this hate, this willingness to die, to kill with impunity, the families of one's foes... & yet I imagine if I had such a thing as a 'People' & they had been persecuted, killed, raped, etc. ad infinitum by another distinct group any time recently, well then maybe I would be out for some blood myself. Maybe. Just maybe.

But as it is, I don't have 'People'. I have a few friends, some family & none of us are really persecuted by anything more than having to wake up for work in the morning with hangovers...

& I aim to keep that way if I can.